SLIPPING THROUGH FINGERS

SLIPPING THROUGH FINGERS

Please don’t give up on me now,

Only a fragment of the memory lingers.

Please promise, you won’t let go,

I feel like I’m slipping through your fingers.

You’ve placed me inside your unmended fences.

Can’t curse you now, without consequences.

I will destroy your vulnerable weak defenses.

You’ll pay for the wickedness of your offenses.

Fuck you!  Fuck you! Fuck you!

Am I finally getting through?

Pay the bill when it comes due - Fuck you!

I feel safe when you hold me.

Always seems to make the pain go away.

I might be getting better,

I might have forgotten my yesterday.

You think you have blunted my razor-sharp senses,

But, the cuts they leave could be quite extensive.

Don’t think for a minute that my memory lapses,

It was so much more than circumstances...

Fuck you!  Fuck you! Fuck you!

Am I finally getting through?

My memories are black and blue – Fuck you!

I don’t remember letting go.

Were you there when I finally fell?

Were you trying to catch me

As I was falling into my hell?

You promised you wouldn’t let go.

I slipped through your fingers.